Last survey-thing I’m doing on here. :)

Do you want to be single?
<3 No, no, no.

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?
All the time. :)

Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
Josue Cardosa. <3

What song are you listening to right now?
No song. Watching a chick flick on Lifetime. xD

Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing right now?
At work. :/

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
I know they do, but I'm learning not to care.

Are you ready for kids now?
Nah.

Are you in a good mood right now?
For the most part. :D

Anything you would like to say to anyone?
"I wish we could have gotten together this weekend, aside from Friday, but you had to WORK!" :P

Do you like dark or light jeans better?
Dark are always better.

Do you believe in second chances?
Depends on who the person is.

Do you like hugs?
Depends on who from. Some people are just icky.

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
:) I do kiss him. Almost every single day.

How have you felt today?
Pretty fuckin' awesome.

What will you be doing this weekend?
:D It's gonna be a long weekend! :)
Friday night- probably hanging out with my boyfriend. :)
Saturday- sister's birthday party at Mike Greenwell's. Josue, Cody, Sarah, and I are going to help my mom with all the little brats that are going to be there. Then, I am possibly spending the night at his house after that. :)
Sunday- hell if I know. Probably chillin' at home, maybe with my best friend. Who knows?
Monday- seeing 'Dear John' with Josue and possibly spending the night at his house.
Tuesday- don't know. If Josue doesn't work, then maybe we'll do something, maybe not. It depends.

Who was the last person to tell you they miss you?
My boyfriend. :]

Is your hair long enough to put in a ponytail?
Yes.

Who was the last person you were in a car with?
My mother and sister.

What color is your shirt?
Black.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Mom.

Name something you disliked about the day you're having.
Eh, nothing really. I just wish I could get myself to stop procrastinating and do my fucking homework.

Last thing you had to drink?
Coke. :D

Do any other girls like the last person you kissed?
Ha. Unfortunately.

How many people have you had strong feelings for in the year of 2010?
One.

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
No, actually. :) At school.

Are you angry with someone right now?
Not too much anymore.

Is the last person you kissed in a relationship?
With me.

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
By two years and a month. xD He figured that one out.

Your ex says, "I'm sorry." What do you say?
Haha. He already apologized, but I nicely put that it's just too fucking late for that now.
And plus, I kind of realized that I was a stupid ass for even dating a pot head in the first place.

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger?
Mhm.

Is there a guy that knows a lot about you?
There is.

Your ex calls you and asks you back out, you say?
"Didn't you already do this? And didn't we already go over this? If not, let me put this in simpler terms….." And many curse words would follow. He's not THAT stupid.

If your bestfriend needed you to bail him/her outta jail would you?
No doubt.

Do you smoke weed everyday?
That's stupid.

The person you have/had the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?
No shit.

Are you someone's best friend?
So I'm told. :]

If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?
Ha. I get that almost daily. I've gotten used to it.

Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends?
Hotel, please.

Is it cute when guys/girls kiss you on your forehead?
:} Yesh.

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
Not really. It's kind of amusing/slightly flattering.

Is it possible to be single and happy?
It is.

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
A few.

First thing you do when you wake up?
Groan and complain in the process of getting up.

Will this weekend be a good one?
It should be. :D

Do you fall for people easily?
I used to.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I think so, but I've been told different.

Has anyone ever told you that they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
Ha. Yeah. That's funny.

Last person you laid in bed with?
Boyfriend. :) <3

Who influences your fashion sense?
No one… I dress like a normal human being. Whatever I have in my closet, I put on.

Type of music you listen to; is it mainstream?
Haha. Definitely not mainstream. Acoustic, alternative, indie. :) But not the overplayed shit.

How often do you use the phrases, "Booo YAAAA", "WhatEVER", "Fly", "Phat"?
Never. I'm white.

Did you know that's socially copy-catting?
Okay.

Do you feel Avril is genuine punk?
Haha. Wow. This survey is stupid.

Would you ever hang art work on your wall, that you KNEW was contraversial, or would you not, just to avoid stepping on toes?
Psh. If I liked it, hell yeah, I'd put it up on MY wall.

Even if you know it's stupid, do you often do along with your friends' ideas?
Not hardly.

How difficult is it for you to stand up for what you believe? (SERIOUSLY)-
Not difficult at all.

Ok; here's a test! Ready?
Uhm, sure.

If you knew you'd be imprisioned or shot, for bad-mouthing your government (i.e. Bush), would you still do it?
Haha. It would be hard to choose… But, I probably would, because I can't keep my mouth shut.

Have you ever been part of a protest rally?
Mhm.

Are you weary of "rocking the boat"?
Sometimes, but not so much anymore. I've changed A LOT the past few years.

Have you ever worn clothing that had obscene language on it?
Haha. Yup.

When talking to people, can you look them straight in the eye, comfortably?
Nope. Probably one of my biggest flaws.

Are you part of any "hate groups", such as the KKK, or the like?
No. I'm good.

How about a militia?
Nah.

Have you ever considered becoming a model/actress/etc?
Ha. I've never wanted to be famous like that. I want to be a high school English teacher/writer. :)

Who influenced THAT?
<3 Some teachers/good friends of mine, and I love them to death for it. They are simply amazing.

What's your genuine thoughts on Obama's religious status?
I don't give a shit, because he fails as President anyway.

Do you care if you offend anyone by answering honestly?
^^^ Haha. Obviously not.

How would you react if you offended your most loved?
:( I would be sorry about it, but if it was the truth, then that sucks. But, the truth hurts.

How do you feel about women still being portrayed as little more then sexual objects?
It's so STUPID. There are still men that say/think that a woman's place is in the kitchen and it pisses me off! Do they not see all the women have accomplished in the past hundred years? We are fucking awesome! We can do anything men can do, but we do it better.

Anyway-enough serious questions, k?
Sure.

If you were in love with someone society condemned, would you keep it a secret?
That's not a serious question?…
But, no, I wouldn't. Love shouldn't be something hidden. If you love someone, you don't care who knows about it and you don't care about the consequences. You want to scream it from the rooftops without a care in the world. That's love.

“You can’t break the girl who thinks nothing of you.”

:) So, today’s been a pretty good day.

My best friend flicked off the bitch that’s been giving me problems for no apparent reason, the one I’ve never even said two words to. That kind of made my day, aside from the fact that today was Josue and my one month. :’D Our parents are actually serious about it too, which makes me very happy. <3 They seem to think we're really going to last… The thought scares me, but it makes me so freaking happy. Both of our moms mentioned last night that it's like we've been dating for years. xD They say we get along so well, we have so much in common, it's scary.

Listening to "I Love You 5" by NeverShoutNever! :] My new obsession, among other things. <3

I have to go pee. I'll be riiiight back. :)

So, I’ve really been getting back into quotes lately. I was on Photobucket and I was like, “Jesus Christ! This is like a treasure chest full of quotes!” Haha. I found a few I love:

“Hold your head high gorgeous – they would kill to see you fall.”
<3 Pretty inspirational, in my opinion.

"When you're forced to stand alone, your realize what you have in you." -Uma Thurman
Another really good one too. So true.

"You look like I need another drink."
xD This one just made me laugh my ass off.

"If beauty were inches you'd go on for miles…" -Some song by Chase Coy that I forget the name of.
I absolutely love this song. <3

"My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made."
That's just amazing. <3

Anyway, listening to "Jenny, You're A Mystery" by Stephen Jerzak. :D

I'm bored. Funna' do a survey hereee:

Who are you?
Melissa.

Is the last person you kissed a virgin?
Yep. :] <3 My innocent babeh'.

Describe how you feel right now in one word?
Relaxed.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon?
Nah.

What's better, amazing eyes or amazing smile?
Smile. <3

Do you want to get married one day?
Yes.

Last person you were in a car with?
Grandma.

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
Mhm. My baby.

Has someone ever made you a big promise & broke it?
Of course.

What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?
Green. :D

Who was the last person you hugged?
<3 Mr. Josue Cardosa.

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
:) Yesss.

Did you cry today?
Nope! :) Today, we've been dating for one month. :D

The last person you kissed calls you, what are they calling you for?
To tell me he's out of tennis practice, but he shouldn't be getting out for another fifteen minutes.

Are you currently talking to/ texting/ instant messaging anyone?
Nope.

You're locked in a room with your ex, any problems?
Ha. Oh, yes. His face would be rearranged after talking all that shit he talks.

Have you held hands with somebody in the past four days?
<3 Errryday.

Have you kissed anyone you have texts from in your phone?
Yep.

Your last text says?
"Happy uno montho!<3 :D" -Sarah Belle.
Haha. My best friend is amazing. <3

Your best friend likes your last "ex", what do you say?
Well, let's clarify this: that would never happen.
BUT, if in some crazy other world, she liked him, I would pimp slap that hoe so hard, because one, she has a great boyfriend. They're going to get married and have kids and name one after me. It's already official. And number two, Brandon is a loser and she knows it.

Would you have sex with the 5th person on your contact list?
xD Nice. No, I'd never have sex with Brandon. Though he likes to tell people otherwise. Desperate much?

Last ex says i love you, you say?
"Haha. We only dated for three days. Dumb ass."

Do you have something to say to someone, but cant?
Nope. I don't hold my tongue much anymore. And when I do, it's not for long.

Where does the last person you held hands with attend school and what grade is he/she in?
East Lee County High School; senior.

What were doing at 9:00 last night?
Cuddlin' in the dark and listening to music with my baby, while our parents talked and watched tv in the living room. <3 :)

Are you in college?
Somewhat.

You're locked in a room with the last person who kissed you, what happens?
Haha. Who knows? xD Nah. Just kidding. :)

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Happens all the time.

Have you ever dated anyone older than you?
Only dated one person younger than me, and it was only by a few months, and apparently now he's a faggot, so I'm kind of traumatized… xD No more younger guys. The rest were always older.

How many letters in your middle name?
Six.

Will you be in school next year? Where? Grade?
Yep. East Lee County, most likely; junior.

Is your last name longer than 6 letters?
Ha. No.

Is someone on your mind right now?
He always is. <3

Have you had a good day today or was yesterday better?
Today was amazing.
Not to mention the fact that my teacher/friend, Rosario, told me that she thinks I'm a great writer. <3 You have no idea how happy I was. THAT made my day, among a few other things too. I denied it, of course, because I don't believe it, but the fact that she thinks I’m a good writer makes me really happy. :’)

How do you feel about your hair right now?
It’s definitely a hot mess right about now.

Have you ever kissed someone who’s name started with a J?
I think so.

Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
I wish. We’re gonna spend time at his house tomorrow though. :)

Have your past mistakes made you wiser?
Like you wouldn’t believe.

Is anyone irritating you?
Nope. That bitch isn’t even worth it.

Do you drink enough water?
Nope. I don’t drink water, at all.

Where do you work?
Summer job; a law firm.
Trying to apply for a job at Barnes and Noble or something for an after school job type of thing.

How do you usually wear your hair?
Down, and a hot mess, or in a ponytail. Either way, it’s almost always a hot mess, ’cause I’m too much of a lazy ass to get up earlier and straighten it, so therefore, it’s curly.

How do you feel?
:) Happy.

Are you wearing any bracelets?
Uh-huh.

Do you want it to snow?
I’m good.

Would your parents be mad if you came home at 4 A.M.?
Nah. I don’t really have a curfew. As long as they knew I’d be out that late, and I kept in contact with them, they wouldn’t care.

Smoked in the past 24 hours?
Ew.

Why do you love the person you do?
I don’t exactly love anyone romantically at the moment, but I really, really, really, really, really like him. :) <3 I've only truly loved someone like that once before, and sadly, I wouldn't give him what he wanted, so breaking up was what I knew we had to do. Honestly, his loss. I know I'm a good girl, and I would take care of my other half, but I guess sex is worth more than that to him.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mamaaa. <3

Do you wear makeup?
Rarely. I used to, every day, without fail, but I'm too lazy anymore.

Are you happy right now?
Definitely.

If you had to choose someone to sleep next to every night, and wake up to, who would it be?
You know. ;) I will be next weekend! <3 Sleeping over at his house.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
Ha. Probably not, but there's a slight possibility since tomorrow is Friday and I am gonna be spending time with Josue tomorrow night. :) <3

What mood are you in right now?
Happy. Haven't I answer this, like, fifty thousand times already?

Will you regret your next kiss?
No.

Who was the last person you gave the finger to? And when?
Haha. That bitch, Megan. Sarah did too, so it was just a fucking awesome, Kodak-moment kind of thing. :D

Would you prefer to go out on a fancy date or just chill in your date's house?
Either/or. Depends on my mood.

Do you like babe or baby more?
Either.

Have you ever talked to a cop drunk?
Ha. Nah.

Do you miss someone right now?
I do.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Sarah Belle. <3

Have you kissed someone with braces?
Thank God, no.

How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?
They'd freak the fuck out.

Have you ever been out past curfew?
No curfew.

The past two nights, where did you sleep?
My… bed?…

Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing right now?
Probably driving home from tennis practice.

When is the last time you really laughed?
xD When Sarah flicked Megan off after school when she was saying good-bye to Cody and I was saying bye to Josue. <3 Priceless shit, I tell ya'.

Angry at anyone?
No, not really.

Who would you do anything for?
There's a few select people.

Is it hard to make you laugh?
Sometimes.

Would you rather pierce your tongue or lip?
Neither. That's kind of gross.

Next time you will kiss someone?
Tomorrow mornin'! :D

Girlfriend went through your cellphone?
Well, first of all, I'm straight. xD

Something's wrong. First person you go to?
Sarah Belle Marie Sturgeon.
No matter what, chicks before dicks.
Not saying Josue's a dick, because he's not. He's a sweetheart. But, you get it. xD

Do you have an attitude?
So I'm told. Haha. Oh, well.

Do you think there is a difference between fucking and making love?
Ha. Honestly, not really. That's why I don't understand the big deal when people freak out when people have sex outside of marriage. So, you're telling me, God's gonna send me to hell if I fuck outside of marriage? Haha. Dude, not saying that sex is a sinful thing, but it's definitely not Christian-like in my personal opinion. It's looked down on to even talk about, and God forbid you talk about it in church. Yet, they want to make it a big deal if it's done outside of marriage, but then, it's okay, just because you have a fucking ring on your finger and legal documents that say you're married? Ha. Wow. They want to control your behavior, your thoughts, your beliefs, and your sex life?! Jesus Christ! That would suck.

When was the last time that you were genuinely happy?
Today! :D

Do you pay with cash, credit/debit, or checks most often?
Mmmm, probably debit.

How was last night?
Great. <3 With my baby and our families.

Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss?
Always have to. xD <3

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
He is.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
No shit.

Anyone say they want to be with you forever?
Well, that was a definite lie, coming out of the mouth of Chase. All he wanted was to "get some", and he wasn't definitely sadly mistaken if he thought saying that would persuade me. It's nice to hear, but I know when it's a lie.

Do you remember who you liked this time 3 months ago?
Well, that's when everything was going downhill with Chase and me and I really didn't give a fuck about him anymore, and I started noticing Josue, so :)

Who was the last person you called?
Madre.

Last person you texted?
Best friend. <3

What'd you do today?
Went to school.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
El colegio, home for a few hours to get crap ready, going over to Josue's house 'til like, midnight or one in the morning, going home. :)

What's on your mind?
How lucky I am, and how things seem to be looking up; Megan and how she needs to get run over by a semi; an idea for a story that just ran through my head in which Megan would be one of the characters and she dies in some terrible, twisted way, like getting hit by an out of control semi or a train; shopping tonight; what to get Josue; homework; a lot of shit.

“Obsessed” by Mariah Carey xD

“We’re meant to fall.”

I can’t get over how much that quote just kind of stuns me. Whenever I think about it, whenever I read it, it just leaves me speechless. It makes me want to add to it, it inspires me more than I have been in a very long time.

It’s a sad quote, but I can’t deny the fact that it’s the truth.

Anyway, Josue and his mom, Rubi, are coming over for dinner tonight. xD That should be fun. Mom has the baby pictures set up on the coffee table, ready to embarrass at an available second. Haha. :) But, it should be fun, honestly. His mom and my mom are so alike, it’s scary. Rubi is just the hispanic version of my mom. We think they’re going to be best buddies. :D

People annoy me, with their stupid, immature remarks, and actually, with their stupidity and immaturity in general. I’ve had so many problems with people at the high school I’m at right now, it’s not even funny. At my old high school, things were never like that. No one knew anything about anyone else’s life unless they were really good friends, and people didn’t talk shit about other people if they did know things. People didn’t hate other people for no reason, which seems to be my problem at this school, and if someone had a problem with you, they came to you about it.

I’m just so sick of the petty high school bullshit. I want to be in college, more than anything. I mean, technically speaking, I am in college, but I mean completely in college. Not just part-time. I want to actually be able to go there, I want to be done with high school. It’s easy to tell me to just “ignore” the stupid bitches I have to deal with daily, but there comes a point when you break, and my breaking point was about a week ago. Among my problems, a girl I don’t even know, my boyfriend’s best friend’s girlfriend, hates me. I’ve never said even two words to the girl and apparently I’m a bitch. I don’t understand it. Not to mention the fact that at this school, rumors spread like wildfire. I have no idea how. People I don’t even know, know shit about me.

I’m trying to keep a positive outlook though. I’m not normally one to do that, but I’m trying. Mom and I got into it again last night, about me going to Josue’s house, but I think she’s over it. Hopefully that ship has sailed. I try to remind myself, I have an actual good boyfriend, who treats me like a princess, like I’m the best thing that’s ever happened to him, I have a decent family, I have a great best friend, I have a few people who care about me, supposedly I’m “Gifted”. I have quite a bit to work with. :)

Okay, this song is annoying me. New song: “I’m Ready” by Chase Coy. :) <3

Chase Coy is definitely the shit.

Gah. Tomorrow's only Thursday. I'm doing nothing tomorrow, except going to school. Friday, I might do something with Josue, if he wants to, which chances are, he will. Saturday he works from like, four pm 'til ten pm. :/ So, maybe I'll hang out with my family, if mom's in a good mood. If not, I'll probably hang out with Hannah and Brea. And Sunday, maybe something with Josue again, or maybe it'll just be a 'me' kind of day. I also have some college shit to turn in by Sunday at eleven pm, so I have to remember that too.

God, I'm just so tired of the teenage drama that I'm constantly surrounded by. I want to just be able to walk away from all of it, but at sixteen, I can't easily do that.

It's almost like every person in high school is, in some way, a moron. There are a few that I can say aren't, but the majority of them are, and I can't stand it. I go to school because I genuinely want to be there, to learn, to make something of myself, but then I have to deal with the idiots who would just rather throw their lives away, so they fuck up all the time and piss teachers off, leading the teachers to hate teaching and making them not give a shit either. Some teachers aren't like that, the good ones, but a lot of them are, and honestly, I can't say I blame them.

Nevertheless, that is not stopping me from wanting to be an English teacher. Why in God's name I'm compelled to go back to high school, I don’t know. I just feel like it’s what I’m meant to do. I don’t know the first thing about teaching, but I guess that’s what college is for. :) And hopefully I can keep writing too. Hopefully.

xD Mariah Carey’s song “Obsessed” is hilarious. I’m listening to it. I downloaded it out of pure amusement and listen to it when I need a good laugh. It’s somewhat catchy, but I can’t make myself listen to it with a straight face. I just can’t. Haha. Wow. Narcissistic much? “Why you so obsessed with me? Lyin’ that you’re sexin’ me…” xxxxD Jesus Christ.

So, I got pretty pissed about a week ago. Apparently, my ex, Brandon, is now telling people that we had sex. Ha. Nice. Definitely not. I’m good. I mean, I don’t believe that you have to wait until marriage, just until you’re ready. And one, I’m not ready. Two, it would be with someone I love, and no way in hell can I love someone in the time span of one week. xD People are ridiculous.

God, this song is gay. New song: “She’s Killing Me” by A Rocket To The Moon. Hopefully this one’s better.

So, tomorrow’s one month that Josue and I have been dating, officially. :) <3 I'm pretty excited about it. I know he's as serious as I am about it, because he cried over me. I know it’s really, really weird that I’m excited about that, but it shows that he really does care about me, more so than any other guy has, and that he has actual feelings, unlike the assholes I’ve dated in the past.

Anyway, I kind of feel like reading “On Writing” by Stephen King, so I think I might try to finish that now. :)

“The Birds And The Bees” – Breathe Carolina

Got all of the homework done that absolutely has to be done for tomorrow, plus a bit more. :)

All I have left for tonight on the agenda is to copy my friend, Celeste’s, notes for Journalism and write! :D Pretty excited about that. For the first time in a very, very long time. Still feeling a little inspired.

Probably not going to end up going to Josue’s tonight, my fucking luck. He has a shitload of calc homework (I should punch that teacher in the goddamn face). Well, he and his mom are coming over for dinner tomorrow anyway, so it’s alright. I guess I could use a breather, a night for myself. But, hoping I’m going to his house tonight. Maybe.

Ugh. Have to tutor my sister with her math homework crap. Fun. Guess I’ll be back online later. :P

“Growinpains” – NeverShoutNever! :)

Stole all of the music of Josue’s iPod last night and put it on my computer, and then put it on my iPod Touch. <3 :) I have 1,600-something songs now. :D Ha. People call us 'music-buffs' or some crap like that, but I still have over twenty-five gigs of room left on my iPod! :o Jaesus! Time to go scavenging for more music!

I've been in a pretty good mood today. It seems that today has just been a really sleepy day, not just for me, but for everyone. Everyone I talked to today constantly mentioned that they were tired, and I fell asleep about ten thousand times in my seventh period. xD

First period today was cool, since I'm Rosario's student aide and it's her planning period, so we just chill. xD It was amusing to hear her drop the F-bomb about a dozen times. Ha. And I didn't do much of anything. We just went and made some copies, came back to her classroom, I ran a few errands for her, and we just hung out and talked. :D It was cool. Reminds me of eighth grade, when I was her student aide. lol. She mentioned that too.

Christ, this music is getting loud. Gah. Have I mentioned I have a headache too? Well, I do. I need some fucking Advil or something.

Hopefully, I'm having dinner with Josue and his mom tonight at their house, and we can watch some tv and cuddle for a while before I have to leave, but that depends on if he gets out of tennis practice at a decent hour and how much homework he has. The whole 'tennis-practice-every-day-of-the-fucking-week' is a little annoying, but I'll survive, I guess.

xD This song is called "liarliarpantsonbackwards" by NeverShoutNever! We went half-sies on the new NeverShoutNever! CD this weekend and the new A Rocket To The Moon CD. :D They're pretty good.

Third period was English 2 Honors. It was actually the most boring class period yet for English this year. I don't think Rosario was in the mood to teach today, to be honest. With all the FCAT Writes bullshit coming up, she's pretty pissed – not at us or anything, but at the administration for hounding her about shit. I don't blame her. xD First period, they sent her an e-mail asking her what she was doing to prepare us for the Florida Writes and she looks at me and goes, "What the FUCK do they think I'm doing?!" That simply made my day. xD <3

Had lunch with Josue and his friends. Ha ha. :) I love that, unlike dumb asses from my past, he isn't scared to hold my hand or kiss me or tell me I look beautiful and stuff like that in front of his friends. :] <3

Fifth period, World History Honors, sucks balls. Not as bad as it used to be, when I was in it first period instead of fifth, but it's still as boring, and still as difficult. We have a project due on the 27th. We have to write a fucking children's book about the FRENCH REVOLUTION. How the fuck am I suppose to do that? And it has to be in such a way that a ten-year-old could understand it. Who am I, God?

Seventh period, Spanish 2, of course, sucks the big one. Worst class I've ever been forced to take in my life, aside from gym. Gym can suck it. How the hell can you FORCE someone to participate in physical activity like that if they don't want to? Bullshit. There's got to be some law against that. But, I fell asleep in Spanish about fifty thousand times, but she didn't wake me up, because I think I looked pretty terrible today anyway; I think it was pretty obvious that I needed the sleep. :/

Listening to "Tonight" by Jamestown Story. Never heard it before. Guess it's from Josue's iPod. xD

Well, I have homework for Chem Honors, College Study Skills, Algebra 2 Honors, and Journalism, all due tomorrow, but I'm too lazy to do all that shit. I'll turn in the homework for Chem on Friday, because we have all week. I'll do the rest, I guess, whenever, whether it be tonight or tomorrow right before it's due. xD I'm the biggest procrastinator ever. And then, of course, I have college homework due on Sunday. Oh, yay. I hate being expected to be a genius, to be able to get everything done. Sometimes, I wish people UNDERestimated me… :/ I hate being a disappointment.

This song is kinda' killing my mood. It's sad. :P Ew.

Changed it: "Together With The Sundown" by Stephen Jerzak. Never heard this one before, but Jerzak is the shit.

God, I'm so procrastinating. I need to go do my homework.

Ya' know what? I'm gonna do it right now, and then, I'm gonna write. :) I've been feeling kind of inspired all day. I've got no idea why, but I might as well, right? Most of the time, I feel like complete and utter crap, so while the mood strikes me, I better get to it.

I'll probably blog later.

I always say that, and then I never do.

So, never mind.

Oh, Economics. How I hate thee.

I woke up at nine this morning and began working on the crapload of homework, study guides, papers, and such I was assigned. It’s now nine at night, and I’m still working. I’ve gotten to Economics.

Throughout today, I have done my entire world history honors study guide, which turned out to be three pages, typed, did my vocabulary terms for english two honors, studied for Chemistry, helped my little sister with her homework, ate, went for a thirty-minute walk, texted Josue and talked on the phone with him for a few minutes, and now I have gotten to economics.

I have to read chapter two, do my assignment for it, which is due, by latest, tomorrow at 11:00PM, participate in the chapter two discussion, take the chapter two practice test, take the chapter two test, and then I still have intro to teaching homework, being that I have to do a scavenger hunt thing with my text book (which is so completely gay), read chapter one, take the quiz, view the video on ‘Digital Natives’, and participate in the discussion about it.

Along with all of that college homework, I still have a book report due by the 27th for my english class, I still have to study for my chem midterm, my algebra two midterm, my spanish two midterm, my journalism midterm, and do my creative writing midterm. :P

Oh, fun.

So, that was my day.

Josue made me feel better though, throughout the day. He called me on his breaks at work and made me smile, and tomorrow we’re going to go rent some cheesy movie and watch it at his house. I’ll probably bring over some crap he can help me study for after the movie. And then, my parents are going to come over later, so his parents and my parents can meet and whatnot. :)

Today has been a decent day, crapload of homework aside.

I’ll probably be back on later, after all this shit is done with.

:) Survey, because I am bored.

1. Would you make a fool out of yourself in public if it meant you were making your partner laugh?
No doubt. :)

2. Would you prefer the lights on or off during sex?
xD What a strange question… Off, I suppose.

3. Do you judge people solely by their musical preferences?
Someeetimesss… :)

4. If you could ‘take back’ your virginity from your first partner, would you?
Mayyybehhh’.

5. Would you ever start a relationship with someone who was still living with an ex for financial reasons?
I really don’t think I could.

6. Do you need to know everything about someone’s past?
Eventually.

7. It is more worthwhile and satisfying to improve the world or appreciate the world?
To improve it.

8. Do you feel you have a purpose or calling in life?
I do. I think writing, and also teaching, is my thing. Something to do with those, I know it.

9. Do you believe that dreams can be messages from a “higher level”?
I do think so.

10. Would you rather have a great friend you could share everything with or a great lover you can’t really talk to?
Great friend I could share everything with. A great lover that I could talk to would be nice though.

11. Is the male or female body the closest to perfection?
Ha. No.

12. Should a child who’s caught masturbating be punished?
The kid doesn’t even know what he/she’s doing! No!

13. Do you like kissing in public?
I don’t really care. As long as you’re not ON each other, then I’m fine with it. If you are, get a room.

14. Do you have a fetish that you would like to employ in your next relationship?
xD Nah.

15. Did America really put a man on the moon?
Yes.

16. Would you date someone significantly (9 years or over) older than you?
It really depends.

17. Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
:) My good friends. <3

18. How well do you handle criticism?
Not well.

19. Would you like to date someone a lot purer than you?
Ha ha. Not really.

20. When fooling around with someone, do you sometimes have sexual fantasies about other people?
xD What kind of questions are these!

21. Is it possible for full-figured women to be equally attractive as thinner women?
Absolutely. I think skinny women are actually really disgusting-looking. xD

22. You've just met someone incredible while out with friends, and (s)he's been kind enough to cough up a phone number. How long would you wait to call?
He'd have to call me to prove to me that he actually wanted to get to know me.

23. Do you think the family of a murder victim should have any say in what punishment is given to the murderer?
In a way…

24. Would you have a 'Happy Button' installed on your body, connected to your brain, which would instantly make you very happy whenever you pressed it?
No…

25. Would you rather know everything about your mate, or be regularly surprised?
Regularly surprised. :) I love spontaneous guys!

26. We are all human, do you judge someone for a past indiscretion?
Depends on if they're intent on changing themselves for the better.

27. Who is the hottest man alive?
I cannot answer this, because I'm not quite sure.

28. Would you rather have your dream job or your soul mate for the rest of your life?
Soul mate for the rest of my life. <3

29. Do you consider yourself sexually open minded?
Haha. Wow. Odd questions. Ooooooddddddd questions.

30. Should your mate also become your best friend?
Doesn't haaave too, but should be. :)

31. Would you rather marry a virgin or someone experienced?
Haha. Honestly, someone experienced would be nice.

32. Have you ever had a true one-night stand?
xD Nope.

33. Have you ever posed as a nude model?
Never would.

34. Would you prefer if good things happened, or interesting things?
Good things. :)

35. Is it better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all?
To have loved and lost. Definitely.

“Do you want to know the truth about the truth?

“Do you want to know the truth about the truth? It hurts, so we lie.”

^^^ I love that quote, so much.

Anyway, this has been quite the hectic week. Monday, I had dinner with Josue and his mother at their house. Tuesday, I did homework and shit that I need to get done, badly. Last night, Josue came over for dinner, and I type a three-page paper for my World History Honors class in less than twenty minutes. Tonight, I stayed home and did a shitload of homework. Right now, it’s 6:16PM. I got done with a few things that have to be turned in by tomorrow about fifteen minutes ago. From the time I get home I am doing homework and by the time it’s 6:15, I am beat. That’s why I go to bed so early. xD It’s time for me to eat dinner now and I’m not even hungry. I’m so worried about mid-terms and my college classes and all the things I have to do that I don’t even want food, which is a rarity for me.

Gah. So, I’m gonna eat spaghetti o’s for dinner, I guess. Cooking ‘em right now. Well, micro-waving them. There’s not much cooking being done when it comes to spaghetti o’s. xD That’s how I like it though. Simple.

Tomorrow’s Friday. More than excited. Ecstatic. Going to Josue’s best friend’s birthday party. :)

Saturday will probably be spent doing homework for high school, my college work, and studying for mid-terms. My head is spinning. I have no idea where to start. I’m just sifting through everything, trying to figure out the best way to go about all the bullshit I have to get done, but I can’t figure it out. I really can’t.

Eating my spaghetti o’s now, feeling. :} Haha. I put on my status on MySpace that people should comment on my pictures and make me smile, and here’s the conversation that went on between my good friend, Gloria, my boyfriend, Josue, and me (Henrietta xD). It goes from bottom to top, so start at the bottom of the conversation. xD Sorry about that.

Henrietta Posted 1 minute ago
:) <3 Haha. You guys are so cute, babbling about me and whatnot.

ღGloriaღ Posted 3 minutes ago
im hoping =)

Jogasm Posted 4 minutes ago
DW she is in good hands but you will see when you meet me

ღGloriaღ Posted 6 minutes ago
but u kno i gotta meet u….so i can FULLY like u…..shes my love and i gotta make shore she does have the best!

Henrietta Posted 6 minutes ago
:} <33333 I love you Gloria. xD And that was definitely cuuute, I'll admit it. It made me smile. :)

Jogasm Posted 8 minutes ago
thank you :) i do the best for my baby

ღGloriaღ Posted 9 minutes ago
awwwww that was cute!!! i like u now lol =)

Jogasm Posted 10 minutes ago
yes Gloria i be the bf

ღGloriaღ Posted 11 minutes ago
aww….r u her bf????

Jogasm Posted 12 minutes ago
LOL Gloria go ahead comment away it doesn't bother me at all as long as you make her smile

ღGloriaღ Posted 15 minutes ago
if i comment ur pics u'll b mad….cuz i dont like ur bf lol =) ti quiero<3

***

So, yeah, I thought that was really cute. :) I feel the love.

Talking to my best friend, Sarah Belle, on the phone right now. Haha. She's babbling about "stupid bitches". xD I guess she has good reason to. I'd be pissed too.

I'll probably blog tomorrow before the party. :) Night!

So, I think I’m going to pretend today’s Tuesday…

Haha. So I’m a member of a website called Young Writer’s Society and someone explained something to me called “Teaser Tuesday”! :) It’s where you post a little snippet of something that you are currently writing and people can comment and such on it. :D Sounds good, right?

So, the temporary name of mine is called “Escaping the Inevitable”. At first it was just something I threw together for my English 2 class, because we had to have something decent to submit, but I was told that I had to continue it. :P Haha. Not that I have to, but she told me that it was really “intriguing” and sounded like a prologue to something lengthier. xD

Here ya’ go:

Background Info: Okay, so I think you’ll be able to deduce from reading this that it is from the point of view of Death. Ha ha. An odd point of view to take, but original, oh, yes. :) And also, it’s obviously a (VERY) rough draft, so don’t be surprised by the crappy writing. I will definitely be editing it, but for now I’m just trying to continue. I’m only on Chapter Two at the moment, but the editing is supposed to be last, no matter how much I want to change things right now. :P I’ve learned that. xD Anyway, I’d love some help. :)

‘Prologue:

It’s tough to escape the inevitable.

Actually, I take that back; it’s impossible.

You know, no matter who you are, no matter how long you live, I will find you.

It doesn’t even matter who you surround yourself with. Famous or a nobody, young or old, wanted or unwanted, the beautiful or the ugly.

And, you see, the longer you try to evade me, the more painful, the more gruesome I’ll make your death. I will see to it.

You can bet that I will find you. You humans are rather simple-minded creatures.

I’ve never missed one yet.

But, why should you believe me? I’m just a mere word, nothing more.

The attempts you all make to prolong your little, pathetic lives humor me. It’s pointless. Your trivial attempts to keep me at bay just a few years longer is comical in my eyes, while so critical in yours.

Ha ha. Then again, pain and suffering is extremely hilarious to me. It always gets me laughing.

Oh, how rude of me! Allow me to introduce myself:
Well, hello, my name is Death, and I’ll be your host.‘

So, yeah. I think I did somewhat decent for a very rough draft. xD And I had literally thrown this together in ten minutes, so I am proud of this shit.

:D

Anyway, I am bored, so survey!

Who is your hero?
SBMS; MAM; MR; TLY; RSY; EB; MPY; JC; Jesus. <3

What's wrong with you right now?
Ha ha. Honestly, this sounds pathetic, but I miss my boyfriend and I miss my best friend, even though I'm going to see them both tomorrow morning. xD

Do you truly hate anyone?
Not at all.

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
Of course.

Would you share your drink with a stranger?
Haha. That is common with me.

What are you listening to?
"Love Note" – Chase Coy.
^^^ Haha. I overplay that guy so much; but I don't think I will ever get sick of that voice. <3

Did you like anyone last summer?
Psh. Ha. Funny.

Last person you talked to on the phone?
Josueee. :}

Last person to comment you on MySpace or Facebook?
My best friend. <3

What color are your eyes?
Blue.
Did you know that blue eyes are a mutation? :o
Neither did I until last year, in science class! xD I learned something!

If you were getting jumped who would you call?
The popo…

When's your birthday?
October 19th. :D Seventeen this year, bitch.

How often do you hold back what you want to say?
Haha. Not often anymore. I used to be soft spoken, but some people broke me out of that shell. xD

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Josue Cardosa. <3 :)

Would you ever get a tattoo?
A small one, somewhere not visible, in case I have to get a really formal job of some sort.

Do you know anyone who has completely messed up your life?
Yep. Completely fucked it up, but I do believe everything happens for a reason, and I'm so glad I'm where I am now. At the time it was happening, I was a depressed and angry mess, but now, I'm happy to be where I am. <3

Can you read other peoples' expressions?
I'm rather good at that.

Will tomorrow be good?
Oh, it will. ;D

Is anything bothering you?
Hmmm… Nothing comes to mind at the moment.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
"Should I listen to my iPod while I try to fall asleep, or no?…"

Can you recall the last time you liked someone?
:) Currently.
That boy's personality is so, so amazing. Haha. I hear all these whores talking about how all that matters to them is looks, but I just don't understand. How can that be all that matters to you? Though, it’s helpful that he’s cute. <3 :}

What's your favorite drink?
Coca Cola.

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
Nah.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
I pretty much am. Just waiting to get that license, February 5th! :D

Have you ever fallen asleep texting someone?
All the time!

When's the last time you ran?
Haha. Not in a looooong time. I am too lazy for that shit.

Are you a jealous person?
So very much.

Have you ever broken a heart?
Uhm, yeah, quite a few times.

Have you ever gotten burnt by a cigarette?
:/ Mhm.

You get butterflies around someone you like?
:] Yeah.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Yes.

Who did you first see this morning besides family?
Sarah Belle Marie Sturgeon, my best friend and godmother of my future children, if I happen to have any on accident, because I sure as hell wouldn't PURPOSELY have kids.

Are all of your friends in relationships?
Yuzzir. :)

Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?
Well, if the cheek counts, then yes. Yes, I did. :)

If the last person you kissed calls you, what are they calling you for?
To say hello, or explain to me that his stupid piece of shit phone-thing isn't working, yet again.

Can you honestly say your happy right now?
I cannot complain. :)

If I gave you a drug test would you pass?
Uh-huh.

Have you ever been looking for something and it was already in your hand?
Many, many times.

Are you a simple or complicated person?
Eh, a little of both, I guess.

Where is the last person you kissed?
His house.

Have you had any beer this week?
Nope.

Is your best friend single?
Nope. ;D Woo! Finally off the goddamn market! xD

Do your eyes change color?
Nah. They don't do anything cool like that, but they are blue!

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? Who?
Josue [no middle name] Cardosa! :D

What does your number one call you?
Gremlinita; hooker; bitch; babeh cakes; best frand; loverrr; sister. <3

Were you happier now or three months ago?
Right now, no doubt. Everything started going downhill three months ago…

Will you be up before 7 a.m. tomorrow?
I will. :P Fuck the school system.

Who is the last person you were in a car with?
Papa.

Have you ever had a sleepover with the last person you kissed?
Not yet.

Anything you're giving up on?
I don't give up.

How many hours did you sleep last night?
Insomnia kicks my ass.
Only two.

What will you purchase next?
Probably food of some sort, or Sarah's birthday presents, whichever comes first.

Do you like to cuddle?
Sure do.

Is your phone right beside you?
It is.

Is it hard for you to imagine life away from your hometown?
I am away from my hometown. <3 Fort Lauderdale, I miss youuu – to an extent.

Do you honestly have any regrets?
A few. Honestly.

Think of somebody from your past that you were once close with but drifted from. If you had the chance to spend time with them would you?
No thanks.

Delete a year of your life, or start over in a new town?
Delete a year of my life, preferably one of the ones I can't remember, like when I was one or something. xD

***

Okay, survey's over. Time to call Josue to say goodnight and watch Taps with Mom. <3 :)

“Paperback Writer” – The Beatles

Today was a pretty good day. :)

Josue and I are officially dating now. People actually know about it, we don’t fret about holding hands in public and stuff like that. Haha. We get weird looks, but honestly, I don’t care, and it doesn’t seem like he does either, because he always initiates the hand-holding. xD “I gots ta’ keep mah’ babiesss warm!” Haha! That’s what he says, because my hands are always freezing. :P

Guess that’s what I get for being a chick.

Haha. Anyway, so, I went to a little party type of thing with him on Monday night. A few of his friends told him to bring me, so I went. We watched ‘The Final Destination’ (which sucked ass), ate pizza, talked, watched part of another movie. :] It was really cool. And then, when he was driving me home, he put on this song called “She Takes Me High” by We The Kings, and before he put it on he said, “Okay, this one is for you.” :} <3 And I absolutely love that song, so much. I am so glad we have the same taste in music. Because it would completely SUCK if we didn't. And then, we got to my house, he turned the car off and we cuddled for a little while because it was really cold, and then he asked me if we were going to be “official” yet, and I decided that we should, and he walked me to the door and all that jazz. :}

Haha. I am such a sap.

So, yeah. :] I don’t think anyone saw it coming. xD We kind of look a bit odd together, methinks, but then again, people just aren’t used to it yet. Sarah says we’re cute together. Haha. Giant Mexican guy who looks kind of Asian with really small white girl who looks extremely Irish. xD Goooooo figure.

Haha. And apparently he talks about me a lot, and his parents asked him to invite me over for dinner on Sunday. :o Kind of nervous… Ha. But his mommy seems really sweet. She made a homemade flan and had Josue bring it to our house when he came over for dinner last night. <3 It was delicioso. :D I hope she cooks all her food that well! xD I will LOVE her!

Anywho, I'm still reading "Velocity" and "On Writing". Haha. I am so busy lately. My Intro to Teaching and Economics online college classes start tomorrow. Really excited but really nervous at the same time. I've taken online college classes the past few semesters, but I just can't get used to it. It's not normal. A high schooler should be in high school, not college too. Makes me feel like a freak sometimes, ya' know?

Well, I suppose I had better go take the Christmas tree down and everything. Mom is being bitchy and decided, "Oh, you don't have enough work to do. I'll make you clean the entire fucking living room and take down the tree. Muahahahahahahahaha!" Yes, just like that.

xD

Oh, and before I forget, I've been writing a novel (which I originally started for my English 2 class; I didn't expect to actually continue it), which for right now is called "Escaping the Inevitable". :D Woo! I'm on Chapter Two right now, so I'm pretty proud of myself. :)

I shall be blogging again later, most likely.