Well, I’m extremely tired, but I promised myself I’d blog today. Not only did I promise myself I’d blog today, but I promised myself that when I blog or write, from now on, it will be meaningful.
I found this quote just now. I absolutely love it:
“When I was five years old, my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment; I told them they didn’t understand life.”
That quote makes me smile every time I think about it. <3
I've gone through a lot of heartache the past twenty-four hours, and there's still more to come. I just felt like putting that out in the open because I feel like I'm skirting around my issues if I don't acknowledge it. I'm not going to go into detail, but the moral of the story, I've realized, is be with someone who doesn't have to lose you to realize what you're worth or what you should be worth to them.
I went out with a friend, Andrea, today, and my mom. :) They got my mind off of all of this nonsense for a few hours at least. We shopped all day. I got two shirts from Aeropostale, and got two books from Barnes and Noble: "Ballads of Suburbia" and "Nightlight: A Parody". I am excited about both, but mostly, the ladder. I am sixteen pages in, and already, it is far better than the Twilight Saga. Admittedly, Twilight, the first book, was very good. But, the last three just ruined it. I loved the first book when everybody was still saying, "Uhhhhm, what's Twilight?………" So, I'm an original fan. But, anymore, it's a love-hate relationship between me and that series. I have many issues with it, and I have a feeling this parody is going to make me feel a bit better within these next few days. :) So far, it is a sarcastic, yet literate book. It is written pretty much perfectly in regards to Stephenie Meyer's writing style. It's insane. :D
Anyway, once I finish a book, I've decided I'll do a little review of it on here or something. :) I'm getting really serious about a few things now that I've had a big change in my life:
1. I am going to get serious about school. No more screwing around. High school and college are so, so important.
2. I am going to get serious about my writing, and write at least a paragraph every day.
3. I am going to have a better relationship with my mom. We are going to be closer than we ever were before. She stands by me, supports me, and defends me until the end of time, and I will always love her and appreciate everything she does for me.
4. I am going to work on being a better friend, because I don’t deserve any of the ones I have.
5. I am going to start being more confident, because I’ve realized that I deserve to be treated well, and I deserve to think of myself in a positive light, without worrying about anyone else’s opinions.
6. I am going to make more time to read, because I’ve always enjoyed my reading time. <3
7. I am going to be serious about my work when I start work on Wednesday. I know I'm fortunate to have such an amazing job, in a law firm, at sixteen-years-old.
8. I am going to keep painful memories in the back of my mind, and never let go of them, but not dwell on them anymore. No regrets, but I have to move on. It was an amazing experience while it lasted, even if I ended up heartbroken.
Anyway, I guess that's it for tonight. Bedtime for me. :)
