I miss Josue, more than I can even explain to anybody.
Hannah’s attempting to help us in getting back together, but it sucks when your parents are overprotective psychos who don’t allow you to make any decisions… :/
Fuck my life.
I really hope Hannah pulls through for me, because to be honest, if I’m not with him, I don’t want to be with anybody else. And I can honestly say, I don’t regret anything I did with Josue. Not anything at all. Because I’m in love with him, and that will never change. He may piss me off, but love doesn’t just turn off.
What do you do when you love somebody, and you have so many obstacles in your way? When you cry every day, when you can’t have any contact with them, and everybody else is rooting for you to be together, but it just feels impossible because of those obstacles?
Some days, I honestly just want to crawl into a whole, die, and be reincarnated as a fly on his bedroom wall.
I miss him that much.
